My CME Affair

8 Dec 2014, when I stepped into my second career, I was nervous like any other undergraduate fresher. I wasn't sure, if things would be same like I had in my first job. I wondered if i could make memories like I always had. I was clueless. Rob, (the only person, I know at that point of time in CME) was outta town and I had then, no familiar faces around me. The office guy handover my keys ID etc and showed around the office and finally my space in the office. My peer is busy with the Monday morning struggles and I am looking through what i can discover for that day. Im glad, Rob send an email, a welcome email, the only thing in my inbox for that day. Over the first week things didn't change much till Rob come back from his holidays next week. The monday i told him, i would like to have the window seat, and there he is, without having an issue, told me, we will shift at the end of day. The day passed and it hit 6 in the evening, Rob came with some screw and tools and to my surprise, started fixing my monitor. I cleared out my mind, Rob, my director, is here fixing my computer and sorting out the cables, to provide me, my comfort place.

I was sure then, there is something in this guy, that I gonna learn and i was looking forward for it. Yes, that was true. Towards early January, the guys who were on holidays returned back and the hiring process was going on its perk. We hired more friends and we build up a beautiful team and we know we are growing. We created MTBs, more fun packed activities, signed up for marathons, celebrated birthdays and started figuring out more reasons for events and parties. We welcomed visitors from other offices, made sure that when they leave, the would have the feeling of coming back and work with us. It was for sure, that we build up an amazing team, with a great professionals who could change the end of the day, to a friend-zoned package.

Everything was beautiful until the end of June, when the management announce us that they are moving the infrastructure team out of Singapore. It was a shock, but it didn't hit out as a big storm. We were strong enough to hold hands and go through the storm. We continued to grow, as a strong team, gained all the good experiences, collaborate as a team, created memories and much more. Time passed, and one by one started leaving out. It was inevitable. We still celebrated the rest of the days with the remaining ones. All we could think is to create beautiful memories within the time we have had together. And we did it. We made it, even when the number is just countable in fingers. Afterall, at the end of everything, we were the best.

29 Jul 2014, the time has hit me here. While wrapping up my stuffs and sending off the goodbye email, one thing my mind was sure, that this is never going to be an end, but a beginning. Beginning to the hopes that good people exists and with them a work place could be a second home.

Having all the beautiful things experienced and bagged in the memory, my CME family would always stays close to my heart and would be there FOREVER! We are complete only when we all are together!
#mycmejourneytoever

Daddy Love

So I am back after an year and half, to here. There had been so much happened in the last year which kept me busy. Lot of things I wanted to write off, and I hope someday I find my own space and start over again. But today is one special day, which I couldn't do much but just write off so that one day, when I look back, I know what all things I've experienced.

Today is Daddy's Birthday. I didn't buy a gift this time, because it wasn't delivered last year. He ruled my mind the whole day. I don't know what I felt, but it wasn't easy. I missed him so much today. Ever since, our family took next step of our relation, Dad was just there like my own dad. I wanted to love him, respect him, treat him like a dad. But I didn't planned anything. He didn't asked me anything. 

The first meeting, when he drunk the very own-made tea with overloaded sugar, without any complaints, I got hitched. I was sure that, he gonna make me his kid for sure. Time flew. Things changed. Daddy's loss was never healed. But I found comfort in the new Daddy I found. He gave me reasons to move on. He gave me the hope of a Dad's love. Above all, he loved me like his own kid.

I was terrible and hilarious compared to the rest two at home. Dad was always there for me, when I wanted something. He fed me, when I was too lazy to eat. He listened to my unending gossips without irritated. He agreed to whatever things I requested for. He accepted me with all my flaws. He never asked me to change. Never forced me for anything. He gave me the space, that every girl would love for. He gave me a Home, that was exactly I was looking for. 

The day when I get married, I thought I was entering to a new life. But it wasn't. I actually entered to a place, I was so much familiar of. I entered to a Home from a Home. Everything was exactly like before. Every faces were same, closer to heart. Every action, I counted, was of no difference. Dad kept his promise. 

Today, when he count another one more year to the journey, I realised, it is not always the blood that makes a Dad, but a Heart who could accept the kid, the way she is, who could actually believe in her dreams, who could let her fly above the clouds and to love unconditionally.

Daddy Love, Im so lucky to have you in my life! You marked the beginning of another era in my life. I know my future is a promise of yours! I love you!

  

June 4!

I thought as like every year, this year also, the birthday comes and goes by. I never know how he had celebrated his seventeen birthdays. But that was his last Birthday without me. I want to scribble this moment now, coz I'm sure that this time would never happen again. I dunno when did we met and when we become friends. He was there always in many faces; he took up the roles of many people to let me know that I would never be alone now and then. I never realized how close we became and how did I fell in love with him. He never told me that he loves me. He never show any sign of love. He never proposed me even. And I, I dunno why I feel it for him. But when I realized, that moment, I didnt want time to go. I just want the whole world to know that he is solely owned by me. My Prince Charming..! 
He was my friend, my best friend, my boy friend, my fiance, and soon in few time, My Better half!
I was always in a hurry to find out the Birthday surprise for him. I would always want the best for him, and every June 4, I want him to feel, he is on top of the world. This year, he was officially mine and I want him to have the best thing for his birthday. 
Morning, after one hell night shift, I rushed to the airport to pick his Birthday gift. My gift was all set, right time delivered to the airport. Of course, it wont be possible with the help of the 2 beautiful ppl at home, Amma and Achan. I collected it, and then rushed to find out a cake shop, to add more sweetness to my precious gift. I got candles and cake (in over happiness, I even forgot what flavor cake I bought) and caught a cab to my destination. I dialed him, asked him to get ready and for a breakfast with me, I was all excited with my birthday gift in hand. Soon as I alight, I went to the car park near to Block 846 (that was his flat), and browsed my old photos to find the number of his bike. I am all set, I put the cake, lighted the candles and placed them on his Bike and waited for him. 
He came. My boy. He was all happy seeing the cake and his girl :) which was me.I asked him if he like my surprise, Yes, the answer.  I asked him to turn back..
Boom!
He broke down to tears. My Birthday gift!
Our Little Bro is just near us. 


Some good memories, we couldn't just get clicked. I never had a photo clicked of that moment. I just melted off in our happiness, The three of us, together for the first time. For the seven birthdays we celebrated together, For the seven hundred birthdays to celebrate,
For the seven lives, to be my side;
Happy Birthday my Love!

Daddy's Little Princess!!

So now that's totally something revolves around a girl's life. 

Much more to say, the eyes through which a girl sees the world - Her Daddy!
From the sun to dark, from school to home, from breakfast to dinner, how a Daddy changes for his girl.

He starts his day by pushing off your blanket asking for getting ready to school. While his tea has been reheated twice and yet not able to take a sip because he needs to wake you up for your school. Believe me, his day kicks off only with your smile!
Even in the dining table, he reassures, the food is on the right temperature, the spice is just well for you and watelse to say, watever on the table, is just wat you like only. No matter how much your Mommy suffers, he will  make things just perfect for you.

A Daddy is not just a Daddy, before that, he was a son,  a brother, a husband.. yet all his preferences just make a 180 degree change and the change is to JUST YOU.
You could never imagine how much a Daddy will care for you, despite of the fact that you had passed a quite number of birthdays. At the age of 18 also, a Daddy is the one, who would still think, whether you had milk and biscuits in the morning. 

Out of all the facts that you're no longer a child, who can do things of your own, he will still place his hands on everything that comes to you. He couldn't never goes to the bed, till u reach home safe. Even when your Mommy could scold you for the dress you wear, the place you hangout, the friends you have, Daddy is the one who stands at your side. That's not because he doesn't care, its just that he ensures 100 times before you go out, what all comes to you is just only the good deed. When your Daddy stops you from a late night date, or a hangout with friends, its not because he doesn't want you to enjoy, Its just that he believes you only deserve the best out of the world. Trust me, I have experienced a lot of times, stopping me from most of the things I do. Like every other child, I was also upset. But one or another way, he always accomplish my wish. I never felt regret of losing anything even wen i missed out million things doing myself.

It makes no odd at your age, even wen you're 40, he still couldn't sleep without making sure that the mosquitoes from your room are completely gone and your blanket is just nice to comfort you. Every act will be the same as the time you are a kid. Its true that wen ppl says, for a Daddy, a child will never grow up. There will be a time when your Daddy's hair also changes grey, then also he could still shout at your mommy for all things that doesn't comfort you.   

The world out there, why Daddy becomes a Girl's pride is just that, he is the only Man who holds her hand regardless of the fact, how bad or dirty or whatsoever she is! 
And to every girls around, you're the lucky ppl in the world, because only you knows wat the word PRINCESS really means. :)

3Days wit 3Million Love!

Well, Nothing has changed these days. The routines same, schedules unaltered, assignments to worry and FYP another mess. Then why am i bothering about? I was used to this hell from Day one of my Univeristy. A couple of unexpected happiness was the only one made my smile a lil bright! And a few days back, the heaven exactly had fallen down on my roof! 

That was this day, when Jim and I had an outing with her family. May be that was a milestone to my whole university life. An unexpected extra-ordinary happiness in my way. After the return from home on June, nothing expect the nightmares of Database Lessons and that Janusz's face (my DB Lecturer) accompanied my sleep. I myself felt like my happiness was far away from me. I was restless coz of the School stuffs and Work. 

Unfortunately it was on the end of the days, I get close to them. Though they were here for a week or beyond, I just get used to them only three days. What three days, it was like three million days in Blk 787E. :) Full of fun and Happiness, may be thats the only time I forgot Janusz and his lessons. Neither I did my assignment nor I went for my Project meetings. I was full of myself. Fun-filled, excited and to the xtreme and more!

Thanks to Jim and her family. They made an awesom time in our home. I would indeed say heaven had fallen down with their bright face, the unending laughter and the noise around and yeah 'the cooking'. What more should someone have to do, when they are here for a short visit only. 

Its a PAST today, though Im still hooked up to it. I 'll miss each and everyone and that lil boy who was always on my side to hang around. We wont see each other anymore, but y'all gonna be in my heart alwayz!

Regret Nothin!

It isn't too easy to play a role that doesn't suit your character at all, Is it? There will be a time in life, where you get fed up of the pointless drama and get back to the place where you started! There will be people who criticize  appreciate or stand beside you for the time. But none ain't gonna be permanent. Because that's how human is made of. The more you expect, the more you turn down!

Obstacles are the way of discovering new paths. Life wont favor always. As much as the good times, the bad times also there, as like there wont be a mountain without a valley. Life is always with up and down. While chasing the life, make sure the family, the love, the relationship, all are moving with you. No point at all, when you reach the destination leaving behind all the precious things. Life isnt that big to go through every bad and good. Its too short that it may be today or another day that can be ended. So love the ones around you, fill the happiness to the surrounding, forgive the ones treat you bad, remember to smile and leave the tears. Always stick to what you think right. Take chances. Apologize in time. Remember not to run behind people to impress them, if you started impressing someone, till end you have to do that.  Make sure nothing is left to say for tmr. Because its just one life all you have. Live it to the full as the way you want. Falling down is not that bad as you think. But getting up again is the spirit of Living. And at the end, REGRET NOTHING! :)

The Indian Bride

What left for a Woman is a Fragile Soul and a Durable Heart! 

What else to think too much? The human being who was made of fragile soul can be none other than a woman. While the whole universe praise woman like a precious gift from God, why still she face the dominated life in earth? Especially when you are born in a country who thinks Women's voice should be bounded inside the four walls, how can the world assume that she was a miracle of God? Do any superficial power bounded her with invisible curbs around the fragile soul?

When a girl is born, Pappa Mumma will treat her like a princess of home. Then when do the princess mode changes to burden? The age when she enters, adolescent,  parents will be putting her resume to marriage market like a bull who was ready to wait for the favorable butcher to crush it into pieces. Bargain for the best deal, considering the body she carries, the words she spokes (if she don't speak a word, then she is the best according to market value)! Is it that what a girl's life is to be?

Then all the way she was adopted to another ambiance with new human beings. There also, no choice but have to forcefully accept what she got and adjust with what her parents chose. She has to live with a man whom she doesn't even know till yesterday, but must have to become everything from today. (This is must, or else the rest of the life she is alone). Then another phase of domination. Your body language, the attitude everything was now under someone's domination. What she has as her own, is two ears, but nothing else! She only can hear, there's no choice of accept or reject. Whatever she hear, she has to obey. (If not, the next day, she will be either at her home or have a signature on her forehead, that she was not worthy to have a married life).

Her responsibility not yet completed by fulfilling her Partner's wish. If she was an Indian bride, then yes, she is not marrying to a boy but to boy's family. She now have the role to satisfy her own parent's wishes and her in-Law's parent's wishes, and along with that, her Better-Half. (While Parents says, don't eat meat and In-Laws says don't eat veggie and husband says don't eat rice, Her meal was supposed to be composed with bread and butter for the rest of life! This is quite funny but true.)

Life goes as on. Every girl who says,' I'm having a happy married life' is just a matter of Luck! Those successful arranged marriages, people around thinks that its because of something they did, that relation become successful (Probably the guy was selected by parents after 20 or more round of investigation). If it goes wrong, then the only words, you can hear is the compassion or empathy towards her. Yet, nothing going to change her life. And if by chance its a Love marriage ended up as failure, the same world will criticize her, but no compassion or anything expect a couple of advice ( She must hear these words, You chose and now you regret, We are not responsible!). At the end, no one except she and her own soul will be together.

Now you might think why i should have criticized the Indian Marriage System now, Yeah,true, I was in soon-to-be-victim status. its true that my future is same like the state of see-saw predisposition. It can either fall to fortune side or un-fortune side. But whatever it is, same like another girl, what I left is either "I'm having a happy life" or a bunch of empathy or a couple of criticism.

Imagine its because a girl born in India, she receive a fixed deposit of fortune till her youth ends. And the rest of life, is like Insurance. You give up everything and listen to your Better Half and In-Laws, u will receive the share each month. And if you go against, the Monthly benefit stops.
Weird! But true! And yeah, this generation, for the least we can expect a better life for gals, hopefully! :)

**Inspired by the book, 'Witness the Night'